Cast and Carry

It was when I got my fourth “3” in college – that was my very first slowmo in life…  I was a DOST Scholar. Without it, I, nor my parents, couldn’t afford me going to any university, even if it was public. We couldn’t even afford my daily expenses. Back in high school, I knew I had to work hard so we won’t continue to live in poverty. I was so afraid of staying poor. It was hard. But there’s always this hope in me that after college, I could get a good-paying job and buy the things I want for myself and for my family. I did work hard. I studied so hard, I really did, I swear I did. I went to places, and I was the best in Math in our class. I even got to join a TV academic contest (Digital LG Quiz) – I didn’t win though LOLs. And again, I swear I did my best. I had to stay late in the library because we couldn’t afford to buy books or a computer. My mom would always scold me for going home late which is normal for parents, and I had to endure that because I wanted to be better. I wan...

Remember this blog ? I can't help but write about what's next... I met a guy at work when I was in college. I was a working student. I loved him, and it was my heart's choice. Again, I let my heart rule. I was so into him, that I was even willing to leave my family for us. He smokes, he drinks, he didn't want to attend school, and worst thing is he cheated on me. From what I knew, it was only 3 times but it's no longer important. He broke up with me on our 3rd year anniversary. He chose to be with his girl, she was his officemate. My world crashed. For the very first time in my life, I went to a bar and cried over him. I couldn't remember what happened because I got myself so drunk that night. I was with my bestfriend. All I could remember was my brother picked me up, he brought me home and I was crying so hard that night. The next day, nanay brought me to the mall and bought me an mp3 player --- I wanted to have an mp3 player that time. I then realized...