Chapter 1: Why is there a man, and he's not mine?

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Chapter 1
March 6, 2014

I, too, had a dog Orpah. Maybe it’s common for single ladies? Since we can’t have children of our own, we will either spend our time with our nieces and nephews or just adopt a dog. We had dogs in the family, but my first dog ever, who really was mine, was Kenshin…. I love Kenshin so much. I love him to the extent that when he got sick and died, I had a big issue with forgiveness. I got a little too hard with his veterinarian. I couldn’t accept the fact that he died in spite of my overly caring “me”. The vet did not really explain how and why, or maybe she did but I was too close-minded that I didn’t understand. When Kenshin died, my world crashed. I wrote a blog about Kenshin, and my love for him. 

*** Kenshin's Timeline

“Why can’t a man like him be mine?” Believe me, that was one of my questions, too. And I can relate to you when you said, “Maybe it was too painful to accept that my heart was ready to love; yet there was no man to give my heart to.”

I love this chapter Orpah. Full of heart, full of emotions, full of honesty. All out, and all out you gave to God.

Orpah:      What is it that you want in a man?
Me:        Hmnn… Before I met Jesus, I simply want someone who will pick me up and bring me home everyday. That was my standard of an ideal boyfriend. But when I fully understood God’s love for me, I had a list of negotiable and non-negotiable traits of my God’s best which I wrote at the back of my first ever prayer notebook. I want to share it with you…

NON-NEGOTIABLE
NEGOTIABLE
Believer
Leads me into prayer
Good provider
Makes godly decisions
Does not speak evil
Tithe regularly
Reads the Bible everyday
Loves dog, cat, hamster, all hairy & adorable creatures
Loves and respects my family
Regularly goes to Sunday service
Supports me in my walk with God
No addiction (yosi, alcohol, computer games, etc)
Has a dgroup
Dgroup leader
Plays guitar
Knows how to drive
Has his own car
Mountaineer, loves adventure
Knows how to cook
Tech savvy
Plays basketball
Can teach me how to swim
Taller than me
Virgin
…
(will add more, lols!)


Let me end with this.


It’s true that my heart is longing for a partner. It’s also true that sometimes I am being deceived by my own heart in trying to search for love in wrong places. But God is faithful. As to why I said that, is what you will discover in the next chapters…

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