The Manual of Life

Most women whom I talked to told me that from the very start, they knew that their husbands are the one. Some of them were boyfriends and girlfriends already since high school, some were since college, some met each other at work ... and so on. And they ended up having their vows in front of the altar. And I am very happy for them.

There were also some who told me that marrying was a mistake. They would tell me stories of their pains, struggles, sacrifices, all those stuff which made their married life miserable. 

This is for all single ladies out there... How would you know if he's the one?

There's no definite answer to that silly question. But I can tell you how you would know if you are in the right track. And girls, I'm sure you knew this already. But you're just so blinded with that overwhelming feelings.

Loving is a choice. It's more than an emotion, it's a commitment I know, I've been there.

I've had a lot of failed relationships in the past. I met my first boyfriend when I was in first year high school, which lasted for only a month. That was obviously not love. I met another guy when I was in 2nd year, and another guy, followed by another one... I played around. I would jump from one relationship to another, and would go out of it that easily. I hurt people intentionally.

I met a guy who I thought was going to be my first serious relationship. I was 3rd yr high school that time. I loved him so much, but he wanted something that I couldn't give --- well not yet. Then I realized that it's not love that he wanted from me, it was just lust. So we separated.

When I was in college, I met this guy who's a "campus crush". I don't know why, maybe because he's so cute? He courted me, but after less than 2 months, I gave in already. I liked him. He went to my house, talked to my mother and asked for permission to bring me to our school party. It was around 12am, he brought me home - I mean our home, in Sangandaan, Caloocan. He was residing in Pandacan, Manila that time (not sure where he lives today). And with that simple sacrifice that he made, I was impressed. So when he asked if I can be his girlfriend, I said YES with no hesitation.

We were so sweet. I thought it was true. I thought we could be together forever. But after 3 months of being her girlfriend, he wrote me a letter. He asked for a break up. That broke my heart. I didn't know his reason. But I was okay, because I thought he would be like my other ex's who would make 'habol' after some time. I waited, I even used other boys who courted me just to make him jealous, but he never returned. I lost hope, and so I again played around, on and off relationships with different boys, but I kept myself pure.

After more than a year, I got a chance to text him. He was the first one to text me anyway. I thought he would say sorry, and that he's going to court me again --- but nope, that didn't happen. He texted me for closure. I felt relieved. Finally, we had a closure. I needed that. He even expressed his desire to court a friend of mine. And I knew, he liked her so much. By the way, they are married now, not sure if they already have a kid but I am very happy for them. No bitterness, hahaha!

I met another guy in college, and again I thought he was the one. Hahaha. He was living in Laguna, and I was still living in Sangandaan. I asked for break up because I wanted him to bring me home everyday. I was self centered, yes. Even I, I didn't like who I was before. Not sure where he is right now, but we are good friends. We chat in fb, and he chats with my nanay, too.

Jeremiah 17:9 says, "The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" 

My heart kept telling me that I was inlove, and that I couldn't control it. I was wrong. My heart was wrong. Why didn't I know it years back? For not knowing it, for not reading the Bible, I've caused myself so much pain.

So how would you know if you're in the right track? Read the Bible... It is the manual of life. I'll write more about how God cured my heart so stay tuned!