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NO ONE can do it like Nanay did...

Today is a very special day for me. It's mother's day. Since then, I've always wanted to have kiddies of my own. Cute girls and boys, running around me and chasing each other. Babies I can hug and watch movies with. Okay, enough of me.


Every year, I always wanted to give my nanay a very special gift on this day. I wanted to give her something for HER alone, something that she cannot share with anyone else. My nanay has always been so selfless. When we give her something, she shares it with everyone. So my favorite gift for her is "undies". Yeah. That's something that she cannot share with anyone, isn't it? Funny but true.

Today, I got no gift for her yet. But I think, me and my brothers & sister have something for her that she will surely treasure. We will celebrate her day and our first ever pamangkin's monsarry together. It may sound "not so special", but for nanay, it really is. She never wanted anything else but to see us all together - me, Ato, Ante, Beging ... Chloe and Curt ... Sha, Ate Cel, Dakkie and Didhie.

I could say that life isn't fair for nanay --- for the things that she'd been through, for all the pains and heartaches. How I wish there's something I could do to just make things right for her. I wish that by saying, "everything will be okay" means that everything will really be okay.

I remember when I first fell inlove with a guy, or obsessed rather. I tried to get nanay out of my way. I thought I could handle it. I hated her for not letting me do things I wanted, like spending time with my ex, going home late, drinking alcohol with him, and all those freaking stuff that a girl at my age shouldn't do. But nanay really knows what's best for me. Everything that she said was right --- everything. The guy cheated on me, I was in a very deep pain, I thought I couldn't move on, I thought that's the end of me. I wasted my life, I wasted three years of my life. I was thinking, only if I obeyed nanay, I shouldn't have gone through such pain. And know what she did? She just accepted me, with her arms wide open. She brought me to the mall a day after the guy broke up on me, and bought me mp4 player. She kept telling me that everything's gonna be okay. No one can do it like nanay did.

I couldn't forget what she said, "ganyan talaga, pinagdadaanan ng lahat ng tao yan..." That very simple line ... made me realized that my pain was nothing compare to hers --- a mother who was set aside, just because her daughter chose a guy over her. Then I promised myself that she will always be my number one, or next to God rather.

Most of the times I still fail her. I still hurt her, without me knowing it. But that doesn't mean that I love her less. I love her more and more each day. She's always in my prayers. God knows.


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